Yeah.. Yeah.. I know.. I've been away for some time now.. Working on alot of new things and getting through life fairly well. Alot has changed, and I bare with it, still treading forward, still moving against all currents. Life is funny sometimes, but, never really changes, never gets harder, never gets easier, it's all about the whim of the user of that life to order which he/she wants in life. Harder or easier ? It's all up to the person, my life is easy cause I make it easy, but, there are some points when I don't know what's going on, but, I just ride the waves back a bit, look for my steps and start moving forward again. That's all we can do really, look back, learn from our mistakes and correct them for the future. It's what I do, and you know.. I loved someone once, well.. Many times.. But, someone close to me had my heart. I loved her alot, but, the sad part is.. I let it slip from my fingers and when I woke up, finally, she was gone. I couldn't get her back, no matter how hard I tried, she just didn't want me anymore. I didn't know what to do then, all I knew was.. "I have to change, I have to make things right, I have to have her back." Well, I didn't get her back, and I hope she's happy now, as much as she probably hates me. Oh.. Blah blah blah.. This is crap. Alright, here we go for a venting. I loved her with all my heart and soul, I cared so deeply, but, deep down inside, I just didn't know what to do. Now, I know what I did wrong, and I don't want her back, I just want her to be happy and keep distance, we can't be friends because we both have hatred for one another, she left me and it's my fault, I admit that. Our ''friends'' took their sides, turn their backs, and hid away for sometime to try and confuse us. But, we saw through them. Just like always. I still care for her, and I'll be there if she ever needs someone's shoulder to lean on, but, I'll never love her again. I promised my friend that I hold dear to me, and I don't break promises anymore. She was my world, my everything, and when she left me, my world began to fall apart. Now, I have my world together, without her, and I am just living life. She chose(sp?) her road, I chose(sp?) mine. I don't know how she's doing, hope everything is great. My friend in England, R. K. (deviant: Katastrophyk), he doesn't even talk to me anymore, but, that's alright. I don't mind. I'm just going to live life and be happy.

Thanks for listening guys and girls. -wink wink-
Take care of yourselves and be happy. Live life, and enjoy every second of it.
You never know when it's your turn to go until it hits you.